When you’re just not found

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Just one of the screenshots of my glitchy moments

I’ve been taking a break.

From this blog.  From social media for the most part.  From a lot of things.

Part of the break was intentional and another chunk was not. 

One thing just led to another and the longer I took a break from writing blog posts, taking photographs to share, and making comments or status updates on other folks’ blogs or Facebook, the longer it felt right to do so.

For the last several months, life spun me in a different direction.  I’ve been needed elsewhere.  I’ve gathered up as much strength as I could muster to give it to someone else whose world was shattered.  And I’d be bold-faced lying if I didn’t confess that the experience has left me spent, exhausted, and in need of some retreat.

That’s part of the reason I’ve been ‘breaking.’  Days and nights were consumed with helping someone else.  There just was no time for doing much blogging.

But that’s not the lone cause.

I noticed an online meme this morning that was intended to be used as a Facebook cover photo and it summed up my feelings quite well: “Taking a break…my life needs me.”

Lately, my preoccupations have centered on my life instead of writing in this blog.  Yep, it’s safe to say my life needed me and I needed my life.  And that life does not revolve around my online presence nor do I want it to.

I’ve gone back to school – in one form or another.  I’m back at substitute teaching so that does occupy some daylight hours here and there, and I find doing so improves my outlook.  Just being around those teens and pre-teens does make my heart happy.

And I’ve also begun taking an online course in something I’ve always wanted to do.  And you know what?  That makes my heart happy too.  And it absorbs my ‘online time’ so that I don’t really want to spend any more time on social media. I count that as a plus. 

However, there’s more to the story.

A glitchy problem arose with my blog a few weeks ago which also prevented me from posting and giving me an excuse not to.  After several efforts at trying to address the issue, I finally threw up my hands and contacted my host site for help.  Technology (and the ire it causes me when it doesn’t work the way I think it should) often baffles me and I have to call in the big guns for reinforcement.

After several attempts and days of emailing back and forth, in between everything else that needed my attention, and sending screenshots to help rectify the situation, one of the ‘Happiness Engineers’ from WordPress sent me a satisfying resolution.  She was awesome, by the way.

But with the problem solved, I found I still wasn’t quite ready to resume blog posts.  I’m still not sure I’m game. 

I’m wrestling with several decisions like deactivating my Twitter account because really, who cares?  And limiting my Facebook activity because really, the only reason I stay on is to keep in touch with far-away friends and promote this blog. And what to do with this blog because really, I don’t know.

Just so many questions and so much I’m unsure about right now.  And honestly, with some new life changes, my time is limited for promoting an online presence.  And do I REALLY want one?? 

Then there’s the bottom line: does my blog really encourage anyone?  In this crazy, mixed up, messed up world, does my writing or photography really make a difference?

I’m pretty certain I have some deep thinking and praying to do.  So for the time being, I hope this at least explains my absence and why I’m just not found right now.

“Sometimes a break from your routine is the very thing you need.” ~unknown

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12 responses

  1. I, too, have been wondering how ‘valuable’ my blog posts are these days when there are so many more important things happening in the world. I’ve been taking a break for quite some time now, posting only occasionally (when I feel something really needs to be said), but from the dearth of ‘likes’, comments, and views, I suspect my words aren’t reaching a receptive audience anymore (and/or making a difference in this crazy busy world). Like you, I need to figure out where all this online ‘stuff’ fits in my life (or, rather, the life I want to live). Fall is a good time for a retreat and some deep thinking about what’s really important in the ‘bigger picture’. God bless.

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    • Margo, you totally ‘get’ where I’m coming from, thank you! I’m seriously considering how valuable my time is too. Do I truly WANT to spend so much time online? And after over 5 years of writing in this blog, is it still viable? I too have noticed a big decline in readership. And I’m tired of all the hype of “making an online presence — build a platform, make an extensive email list,” blah, blah, blah. A lot to ponder, isn’t it? Be blessed too, my friend.

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  2. I think there’s always room for a kind voice and inspirational words, and fellowship. I’m trying to cut down on blogging time, it can eat up so much of one’s day. It sounds like you are being pulled in other directions now, and resting is always a good thing. I found blogging is not so much about the numbers, but people one has come to know and care about. I hope you’ll pop in from time to time to share with us. Hugs as you sort things out.

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  3. I have been away and taking a break too, so we were preoccupied offline together. I did miss blogging the whole time I was in Germany though and everything I looked at or marvelled at reminded me to save the memory for sharing. I suppose blogging means different things to different folks and for me it is an outlet for writing and for clarifying my own thoughts. I hope you will decide to continue as I am one of your constant admirers.

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    • Dor, I agree with your comment that blogging is an outlet for writing. It’s definitely that for me too. I know that if I completely stop blogging, I will miss my blogosphere friends like you! Thanks for always being encouraging!! 🙂

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  4. I’m in agreement with all of the above…including what you wrote! I too, have stopped blogging, I think about it once in awhile, look at the few that I follow, once in awhile. You pretty much nailed it. I know I met some amazing people in the blogging world (like you!) but….it was beginning to feel a little empty. I don’t know if or when I will come back to blogging, it crosses my mind every now and then….
    God Bless you in all your new endeavors – because you will be a blessing to someone…. whatever it is you decide to do!
    Thanks for sharing from your heart, I get it!

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    • Becky, I noticed you haven’t been blogging lately either. Thanks for commiserating with me. Yes, I find blogging is feeling empty too, but I’m not sure if that’s just my state of mind right now with so much going on in my world. Anyway, thank you for the blessing. ❤ It's been great getting to 'know' you through the blogging world.

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